thanks!

just want to say thanks to everyone for all the birthday wishes. and for reminding me that i’m old. yes. thanks for that too. hahaha. i am truly blessed to have you guys as my friends …you know who you are!

=)

oh and special thanks to jane making my special day specialer =P and for taking all those pics!

love and fear.

just a few things i’ve been learning from the same book i mentioned below.

“acknowledging your fear heps to meet GOd in our places of deep vulnerability, which helps us to meet ohters with greater honestly and humility”
“energy maintaining safety and comfort always depletes energy available for love for others”
“the guilty self feels that it deserves punishment. it also feels like a dangerous self. Unconscious guilt makes me feel that i have to withdraw from others lest i damage them by my love. This leads to self preoccupation, and leads to serious impairment of ability to give or receive love.”
- as a result, our love is limited, we receive and give love in measured doses

i guess throughout my ranging teen yrs w/ my raging hormones i’ve always been very insecure about who i am or was or yeah. i think a lot of it was just fear of what people would think if they knew who i really was inside. maybe it stemmed from a dislike for myself. i mean if i didn’t like myself, why would others? and i suppose how much i mattered to God didnt’ really click until this past year where God totally kicked me in the face and made me realize how much i can be secure in Him and love myself the way He loves me.

i guess i always thought of myself as relatively outgoing. not TOO socially awkward, and able to carry on a conversation some of the time. but a few friends at Queens that i am so thankful for have really challenged me to open up, which has forced me to dig inside to see who i really am, someone who i’ve been trying to avoid facing. so many things that i’ve built up as who i thought i was were only walls to guard from fear of who i really was inside.

i think i should stop before this turns into an emo posting when it’s not! i’m trying to say what i’ve learnt! just want to thank my friends at Queens. love you guys so much!!!

on a less..heavy note…APPARENTLY…
1. hong kong contains the place w/ the highest human population density in the world – none other than mong kok
2. if global warming keeps up in it’s progress, hk is going to have no winter (not that it really does anymore) in 50 yrs. kinda scary thought. i think i’m moving to toronto. haha.

nonetheless. i love hong kong.